Day 89, July 28th, 2013

Tanner's first birthday party today went so well! It was fun watching her play in her little pool and watching the older kids run around in bathing suits and play with one another.

Tanner eating her cake for the first time was awesome and the icing stained her blue!! I got some fantastic pictures of it all but with the request of my brother and sister in law, I will not post pictures of the kids online, sorry guys!

I also went for a ride in the front corral this evening, which was great! Jordan and Kev worked on roping tonight and I thought they played some fun games!

Day 88, July 27th, 2013

How do you explain to people that you feel your feelings should be considered and that you're important too. Right now, I feel forgotten. That I'm supposed to be some nice magical person that allows people who have hurt you to be around again. Well guess what? I'm not. I'm human, I'm a girl and I want my feelings to be considered and considered carefully. Right now, I feel as though I'm meaningless... insignificant and forgotten. Nice feeling to start a Saturday morning, eh?

Tonight is the pig roast in belcourt. We go every year and its usually a good time. Last year, Jordan won a scentsy for me and I absolutely love it. Well, I don't think he won it for me but I definitely claimed it.

I sure do hope today turns out better and I'm able to flip my mood, I know you're in control of your weather but seriously, my weather was just fine until that damn storm came and turned everything upside down. It should have just stayed away, like it belonged.

Day 87, July 26th, 2013

No dairymans picnic last night. Well, there was one but Jordan didn't want to go. He originally said it was my fault until I said that he was the one that said he didn't want to go so we stayed home, lol, watched some PVR'd Calgary Stampede and went to bed before 9:30. LOL It was actually nice to go to bed that early. If I had been at home, something would've kept me up. When the alarm went off this morning, I still didn't want to get up. I wonder how long until I'm out of this slump??

Day 86, July 25th, 2013

Movie Night last night, went and seen Despicable Me 2 with Kat and Nikki. It was cute, got to love those minions!!

Today is the dairyman's picnic. Its west of Selkirk and hopefully Jordan and I will be going to it. We went last year but it was much closer to home than this one is. I won't find out until later if we're going but I hope so, it was fun last year and its neat to see everyones set up.

This weather sucks so we'll see what today might bring, you never know! They're already forcasting a tornado watch. Yesterday there was a funnel cloud so hopefully all that crap stays away.

Day 85, July 24th, 2013

Happy 1st Birthday to my amazing niece Tanner!!!

Last night, we celebrated Dad's birthday with a simple evening. Kevin, Calvin, Mom, Dad and I hung out for a little while and than Kat, Nikki and Jordan showed up. Buzz showed up not too long after. We drank, laughed and ate cake! It was a good night.



Day 84, July 23rd, 2013

Happy Birthday Dad!!

Happy 'Birthday' Schmoo, miss you!

You know those days when you wake up and you can feel that you're still angry from the night before, yup. You got that right. I'm still angry from the other nights events and how I'm supposed to get over my feelings so the ones that hurt me can come back around again. I don't know how I'm going to handle this other than I'm going to have to sit down and talk to certain people about it so they're aware as to how I feel. I've already been told that I should be over it and I am over it but hashing out all those feelings the other day was not fun and hey, why don't you put your feet in my shoes for a change and see how you would feel. Its not something I'm ever going to be ok with but hey, I got the better guy, I got the better life, so yes, I should be ok with it because I got the upper hand but when you've been hurt that bad and have these resentful feelings, you can't just say, I'm over it. These feelings of anger will soon fade just like I hope your faces do. Don't ever try and talk to me at a function like that again. It was not fair to me. That's another thing that I don't think I could forgive you for.

I got my dad a snickers cake for his bday, I hope its not too sweet for him. It looks soo good. :)

A great thing about my day though, I got to see my two incredibly beautiful nieces this morning. They're so amazing. Best thing to wake up to to hide the anger for a little while, staring at them first thing in the morning. *sigh*

Nikki bought me a book today, she said she saw it and thought of me, I love it!! Thanks Nikki!!

Day 83, July 22nd, 2013

I did not want to get out of bed this morning. I was all snuggled into Jordan and it was one of those, I hate you alarm clock moments. Although I got to sleep a little longer than he did, I just didn't want him to go.

He went off to work and I started watching True Blood when I got a text saying that I could go spraying with Jordan. So Momma J took me to Jordan and off we went. Than I walked home from the corner as he was going back to the farm so I was able to go home. I took more pictures of Anna's baby but AGAIN he was laying down! lol.

I had a nap that I needed badly and didn't do anything all day. It was great.

I'm in a bad bad mood today though so don't piss me off or you might get your head bitten clean off. Its no joke, do not poke this bear today you will regret it.

Went to Jordan's to get my stuff but he wasn't there so I went right back home, showered and texted Jordan. Off to sleep now, thanks for the encouraging words Jordan, I really needed those. ♥