Day 84, July 23rd, 2013

Happy Birthday Dad!!

Happy 'Birthday' Schmoo, miss you!

You know those days when you wake up and you can feel that you're still angry from the night before, yup. You got that right. I'm still angry from the other nights events and how I'm supposed to get over my feelings so the ones that hurt me can come back around again. I don't know how I'm going to handle this other than I'm going to have to sit down and talk to certain people about it so they're aware as to how I feel. I've already been told that I should be over it and I am over it but hashing out all those feelings the other day was not fun and hey, why don't you put your feet in my shoes for a change and see how you would feel. Its not something I'm ever going to be ok with but hey, I got the better guy, I got the better life, so yes, I should be ok with it because I got the upper hand but when you've been hurt that bad and have these resentful feelings, you can't just say, I'm over it. These feelings of anger will soon fade just like I hope your faces do. Don't ever try and talk to me at a function like that again. It was not fair to me. That's another thing that I don't think I could forgive you for.

I got my dad a snickers cake for his bday, I hope its not too sweet for him. It looks soo good. :)

A great thing about my day though, I got to see my two incredibly beautiful nieces this morning. They're so amazing. Best thing to wake up to to hide the anger for a little while, staring at them first thing in the morning. *sigh*

Nikki bought me a book today, she said she saw it and thought of me, I love it!! Thanks Nikki!!