Day 221, December 7th, 2013

I worked really hard to lose 30 lbs. I was succeeding and feeling so excited about how great I was doing until I hit a major bump in the road.  I started feeling ill when eating raw veggies and bloating really bad.  I started gaining weight with sometimes up to 6 or 7 lbs. a day and losing it the next day.  The pain was getting worse and eventually making me quit eating anything raw vegetable related.  Since August I've put on 8lbs but look like I've put all 30 back on.  I went for a physical and now have been going for a series of tests including a ct scan. I'm waiting on results but something is wrong.  I feel horrible and hate looking at myself in the mirror.  My self esteem is out the window right now when it comes to my appearance. I'm discouraged and feel defeated. It changes all throughout the day and I'm getting incredibly fed up and feel absolutely disgusting
 :( whatever is wrong, I hope they figure it out soon before I lose all ambition to keep trying to lose weight.